To say I haven't been struggling would be lie, a huge lie.
Last fall, school really drained my inspiration and motivation out of me. Being in a program that doesn't feel that the type of art you make is considered art and constantly not being able to produce the work you love is draining.
I slowly started to set my camera down and only pick it up when I had jobs - which is something that is truly terrifying. Then, going on this trip this past semester I had hoped it would pull my inspiration back, which it did..until I got back home.
I've considered putting my camera down for good and that's honestly such a scary thing for me.
Photography is my passion and I love capturing the people and things around me so much. So, when I get in these slumps with it - I typically pick up my film camera to get the motivation moving for a few weeks, but that just wasn't cutting it this time.
I looked into possibly switching cameras to a mirrorless, possibly stopping portraiture, heck I honestly even considered giving photography an all around break for a while. Then, I really sat down and thought about everything and why I was feeling this way.
The conclusion was, I was comfortable.
Too set in my ways of how I shoot, what I shoot, what I show you guys, everything. I've gotten really comfortable with only showing you guys a little bit - masking out my life to only show you about 10% of it.
So, I decided it was time to change things up a little bit and stop being so pick with what I post on my social media accounts. 90% of my photos (not just photos that don't make the cut either) never make it on social media because they don't fit the "vibe" and I'm really over that. I want to show you guys everything - my days, my life, my friends and family, my adventures, travels, high points and low points.
I figured the best place to start, is with myself. So, I'm getting myself out of this slump with pushing myself into something I'm incredibly uncomfortable doing - self portraits. Heck, even being on the other side of the camera in general.
Welcome to my life. I'm Bri, it's nice to meet ya.